in 2020, it shall be well. you are not here by chance. you have arrived in this place fully loaded with grace to finish the race. this is not the first time you will be here. you have lived this year over and over again before time came to make it tangible.
In the middle of a million ideas racing through my mind, I catch a thought about death: I’m gonna die someday. It says. It’s true, but if you tell me to explain how it makes me feel, I’d say – helpless, like a falling leaf, a passing wind, something then suddenly, nothing.
Does the thought of death ever make you feel that way?
My first problem with being single is the loneliness. Many times I feel okay, but sometimes I don’t. There are many things that trigger a sense of loss, especially because I am a relational person. I love love and I have an idea of what being with someone in a romantic relationship would look like and this idea is so tangible in my head that the absence of it creates a sense of loss.